Toilet Paper #4 - Mengail

I'm not a big fan

I Am Not That Kind Of Guy #1


Shit Cover #22 - Love In The Ice [Tohoshinki]



Well, guys, you heard of the famous band right. Tohoshinki. I'm sure you girls would definitely wet your pants by just looking at their cool hairstyles, with such unbelievably beautiful faces as a guy [Yes, this is me exaggerating], and awesome dances where they tayang-tayang their nipple and stuffs.

I know, right.

Well, I'd feel even more better if you wet your pants hearing me doing a cover of one of their songs, too. You know, at least I feel good, because if you wet your pants today, I'd really thank you for that compliment LOL

P/s : Midterm's coming up! HMMMMMM


Sexist #15 - Nice Guys Listen Up


You hear it all the time

"He was such a NICE guy, and she's such a heartless bitch for dumping him."

I hear all kinds of fuckery from self-professed Nice Guys, *heck, even from me back then* complaining that women must WANT to be treated like shit, because THEY, the Nice Guy, have failed repeatedly in relationships. This is similar to the false logic that

"Whales are mammals. Whales live in the sea. Therefore, all mammals live in the sea."


If you have one bad relationship after another, the only common denominator is you. Fucking think carefully about it, will ya?

So, what's wrong with Nice Guys? The biggest problem is that most of them fuckers are hideously insecure. They are so anxious to be liked and loved that they do things for other people to gain acceptance and yes I know this is really sad to hear - to gain attention. Yes, they are really into all of that craps rather than for the simply pleasure of giving. You never know if a Nice Guy really likes you for who you are, or if he suddenly gets into you out of desperation because you actually paid some kind of attention to him.

Nice Guys have massive insecurities upon themselves - a big red carpet for the predators of the world. There are women out there who are "users" - just looking for a sucker to take advantage of. "Users" never take Nice Guys seriously. They stroke their egos, take them for a ride, add a notch to their belts, and move on, as long as they take the benefit out of that sucker. It's no wonder so many Nice Guys complain about women being so horrible, when the so-often kind of women that gets attracted to them is the lowest form of life.

Self confident, caring, decent-hearted women find Nice Guys to be too clingy, self-abasing, and insecure.

Nice Guys go extreme and obsessive. They bring roses to a Let's-Get-Together-For-A-Coffee date. They try to buy her affections with presents and fancy things. They think they know about romance, but their timing is all wrong, and they either come on too strong, too had, or too fast. OR, they are so shy and having the lack of confidence, that they hang around pretending to be "friends", in the hope that somehow, someday, they will get the courage up to ask her out for a date.

They are so desperate to please that they put aside their own needs, and place of their desire on a support. Instead of appreciating her, they worship her. We are only human, and depending on a support from a women is narrow, confining places to be - not to mention the fact that we tend to fall off of them.

They cling to her, and want to be the "ONE" with her for fear that she is out of sight, she may disappear or become attracted to someone else. A Nice Guy often has trouble with emotional intimacy. Because he believes that if she learns about the REAL person inside, she will no longer love him.

Nice Guys are always asking HER to make the decisions. They think it's being equal, but it puts an unfair responsibility on her, and gives him the opportunity to blame her if the decision was an unwise one.

Nice Guys rarely speak up when something bothers them, and rarely state clearly what it is they want, need, and expect. They fear any kind of conflict might spell the end of the relationship. Instead of compromising and negotiating, they repeatedly "give in". When she doesn't appreciate their sacrifice, they will complain that

"Everything I did, I did it for her." *And yes, I used to complain a LOT about this one. Fuck me.*

As if this somehow honours them to the status of "pejuang". A woman doesn't want a "pejuang". She wants an equal, caring, adult partner.

Nice Guys think that they will never meet anyone as special as she is. They use their adoration as a foundation for claiming that

"No one will ever love her as much as I do."

Instead of being a profound statement of their devotion, this is a subtle, but nasty insult. It is similar to saying to her that

"You are a difficult person, and only I can ever truly love you, so be thankful I'm here, you fucking whore."

The Nice Guy need to believe that he is the best person for the object of his desires, because otherwise his insecurities will overrun him with jealousy and fear. The truth of the matter is that there are many people out there who can be a good match for her. We rarely stop loving people we truly care about. Even if we no longer continue the relationship, the feelings will continue.

But love isn't mutually exclusive. We can, and do, love many people in our lives, and romance is really no different. Though he may love her immensely, there will likely be other people who have loved her just as much in her past, and will love her just as much in the future. The irony of it all is

"Who would want to go out with someone who was unlovable anyways?"

And then, more than loving the women in his life, a Nice Guy NEEDS her.

"She is my life, my only source of happiness..."

"I need you, Atin. I could never live without you." <-- Hoyeah, this is me, 18 months ago.

YECH! What kind of a burden is that to place on her? That SHE has to be responsible for YOUR happiness? Get a grip and stop being such a pussy, you fucking douche bag.

Another mistake Nice Guys make is to go after "hard luck" cases. They deliberately pick women with problems, depressions, and personality disorders, because Nice Guys are "helpers". A Nice Guy think that by "helping" this woman, it will make him a better, more lovable person. He thinks it will give him a sense of accomplishment, and that she will appreciate and love him more, for all his efforts and sacrifice.

Aaaaaannnd yes, he is usually disappointed by the results. Because it doesn't work that way. You "help" a women today, tomorrow, another Nice Guy "help" her to get her out from your life. And the circle continues.

This ultimately boils down to the fact that Nice Guys don't like/hate themselves. In order to truly love someone else, you have to learn to love yourself first. Too often Nice Guys' mistake obsession for "love".

Get this, Nice Guys :


You don't have to be an ego-inflated, arrogant jerk. Just be a normal "asshole", in a way that normal "bitches" would actually be attracted to. You just have to appreciate yourself even more. You have to know what you want out of life, and go after it. Only then will you be attractive to the kind of women with whom a long term relationship is possible.

TL;DR huh?

Stop being such a clingy fag. Be yourself, care for her, but don't lay it on too thick [unless you're in the bedroom having sex] or she'll leave you for me.

P/s : Be a nice guy later. Right now you have to be an asshole to score chicks.

Source of idea and writings : An info thread from /b/. I won't post the link here, because the thread's already been deleted.


Sexist #14 - Sexual Fantasies

'Sup guys, I'm just chilling in a jacuzzi.


A sexual fantasy, also called an erotic fantasy, is a fantasy or pattern of thoughts with the effect of creating and enhancing sexual feelings.

Now everybody who's normal would normally have had their own sexual fantasies before. Yeah, guys, no matter how of a moralfag or how religious the person is, it's completely in our nature as human beings to have fantasies where we have sex with another person of the opposite sex, or even fantasies fucking with a dog, or an octopus.

Hmm, that kinda freaks me out at first. But yes, this, as a matter of fact, is true.

But lemme get to the point of the difference between guys and girls.

Like me, I like to talk about sex a lot in this blog. But that doesn't mean I'm always having this conversation with people in the real world. I have my own fantasy as a guy, and I do watch porn for once in a while.

You see, guys, for men, I dunno if you watch porn or not, but to be realistic, nowadays, it is considered normal to watch porn for guys. Unless, he's too ashamed to admit he watches them, or he lies about it. But I'd like to assume that all guys get horny at certain times. And as a solution for not being able to have sex at the moment, we watch porn and masturbate to it.

As simple as that. I'm not trying to sound gay or anything here, but hey, this happens, okay. I'm talking about the real world here. At least it's better than fucking some one else and having them pregnant and not being responsible for it.

But as for a women, it is considered weird to have the need to watch porn whenever they get horny. In fact, I also don't know whether you girls actually watch porn or not.

Geez, SERIOUSLY GIRLS, DON'T YOU WATCH PORN? Ke you all rahsia-rahsia? Shit, I've been thinking about that since I was 15. But they do have porn for women, yenno.

Happy Caturdays, everyone.

I don't quite understand of how women think when they get horny and all, but all I can say is, women tend to get emotionally attached to everything, even to things like this.

All they wish to have is having a calm environment where they'd like to spend it with their lovers, and that being said, it's all about being gooey and romantic.

If guys are able to have a hard on to watching porn, girls are able to get themselves "wet" just by reading.... A romantic novel. Yes, especially at those scenes where it all get super sensual and it's like the romance element that's in the air is equivalent to how much fluid would they wet their panties.

Because it stimulates their mind of having sexual fantasies and enjoying every moment of it as if they were actually being the character itself in the novel with their respective lovers.

I like to post random pictures

I know some of you ladies will deny this shit. But I have references, okay. Yeah, you gave me the idea to write this trash. I know you're reading my piece of crap.

Now us guys don't get it. Why the fuck would you ladies enjoy reading craps like that just to get horny? There's so much effort to do and it's so troublesome. I mean, when I get horny, I just click and click and click my mouse and at some point, I don't click my mouse anymore, because my hand's busy with something else. You know what I mean.

I guess, maybe women enjoy the continuous romance, while guys only wanna cum. LOL But that doesn't make us guys animals, okay. Everyone have emotions.

And by me saying all of this crap everyone knows about, that doesn't mean that everyone of us guys want you girls to join us watch porn and stuff.

We don't want girls who enjoy being a slut like all the time.

We also don't want girls who are too naive and being all "THIS IS WRONGGGG!" and shits.

And I know, you ladies would certainly go for

"It's just.. I don't wanna be perceived as a bimbo. :("

No, I don't want you to be a bimbo, either. You have to be both. You have to be two people at the same time. The saint, and the sinner. The librarian.... And the stripper.

On one hand, you have to push the guy away with the cold and being all cool and in denial. On the other hand, you have to be a sexually teasing tornado.

With that being said, I have no other things to say to you ladies. If you think yourselves being too innocent, try slutting up a bit. Or if the element of a whore is already inside you, try pushing it down and get those images of a nice, sweet girl in yourself so that the guys would not only be crazy about you, but they could also be like enjoying their time with you. Not in a sexually way only, but also in a normal human relationship way between a boy and a girl.

Who knows, when you got married, you could try this shit out. It's in every guys dream to the idea of having their own personal sex slave, not in a cruel way, but just for being fun once in a while, so why not try act like one? Nanti-nanti la, takyah la sekarang.

It's all about keeping it steady. Remember, the key is 50% slut and 50% naive.

Sigh, I'd love to talk about sex all the time, aren't I?

Okay, okay, I'm stopping.

P/s : Hoyeah, I most certainly am not gonna get a girlfriend with this blog. You're right. =))))



Shit Cover #21 - Nightmare [Avenged Sevenfold]


This is just a cover I've made with Nazeep like a billion years ago. And I'm posting it now on our blog because I have no other things to write.

Ya, I suck. I know. You go on with this legacy, Pam. For I'm about to dieeeee.


Check out Nazeep's channel, man. The guy's a maniac. He could pull off any rock song, yenno? Which made me feel bad 'cause since I've already wrote my 1st song, I'm not that into learning to play the guitar anymore. I HAVE NO PROGRESS because I've already achieved my target.


Nvm now. Hope you guys enjoy this cover. Rate and comment, and subscribe please :">

I told you already, NNN rocks! And I suck balls. Now go easy on me, 'cause I'm not trying to imitate Matt Shadows vocals, okay :(

Oh, before I forget, let's have a peek into one of Nazeep's cover.

The guitar solo, guys. THE GUITAR SOLO.

Nazeef's Channel <-- CLICK ME

P/s : Remember my song "Can't Seem To Love"? This special someone actually made a cover out of it. So I'm just gonna leave this here.


What I Hate About Facebook #10 - Mothers' Day

Ya, I'm the jerk.


You see guys, today is Mothers' Day and I'm glad that we're still alive to actually realize how important our moms are, and of course, we should let they know that we love her, no matter how protective she is, how annoying she is, and how cute she is when she's asking you how to type an SMS on her cellphone.

Yeah, my mum doesn't know how to use the cellphone, guys. But I don't give a damn about that!

I love my mum. In fact, I'm more to an "anak mak". And I'm not embarrassed to admit that, okay, 'cause she loves me. :">

And since we were little, we always have been a pain in our moms' asses. [WOA THAT DOESN'T SOUND RIGHT] Yet, she still loves us and trying her best to take care of us, feed us with happy meals in a day, wash our shits, and even bought undies and socks for us *time kecik-kecik lah*

Seriously, who knows what you could've been if it wasn't because of your mom. She looks out on us like being worried all the time, just for our sake as an innocent stupid kid.

Which reminds me of, yes, dumb things I did back at the days when I was little. And my mum was really pissed at me, she rotan-rotan me and all, it hurts you know. My buntut was still soft and gebu at that time, I didn't want to get those cheeky butts of mine turning all red sebab kena pukul. :'(

But I guess, because of her rotan tu lah... which made me being the person I am now. Well... Not exactly, but still! Like, I wouldn't even be here in this world if it wasn't because of my mum.


Enough of the grateful things to write. My point is clear and I'm sure you guys are all mature readers and understand what I'm trying to say and....yes, I love my mum.

Isn't she lovely? Ihiks.


So, let's move on to the facebook thingy. I've already noticed that most of my friends on facebook seemed to be reminding themselves and people around them of how great our mums really are.

You know, posting nice statuses wishing Happy Mothers' Day to everyone and posting special links about how they love their mom on facebook.

That's definitely good, and I have no problem with that, whatsoever.

What I do have problems with, are those people who love to bantai-bantai other people stating out that ;

"Hari Ibu tak sepatutnya disambut hari ni, ianya WAJIB disambut hari-hari!"

"Call jelah mak ang tu hari-hari, bukan susah pon aih, tunggu setahun sekali duk tunggu Mothers' Day payah ah."

And other shits related to those.

Banyak! I could actually list down every status yang aku ingat yang post benda-benda macam ni hari ini. So, jangan risau Arip, bukan ang sorang ja LOL.

Yeah, even dalam-dalam semua orang happy sambut Hari Ibu hari ini, I can still see what you guys did, ya know.

You see guys, I know you have your own points for not approving Mothers' Day, and I do respect your opinion, and I get it. Really, I'm not kidding.

But I do have my own opinion, too you know. For me, days like these, like you know.. Fathers' Day, Mothers' Day, Valentine's Day *ooooOOooh beware moralfags* are just special in a good way.

Not in a way that it shows you that you just call your mum and tell her you love her once a year and only at this day.

Not in a way that you're just gonna be all loving and thinking about your mom only at Mothers' Day, and then suddenly the next day and the day after that and EVEN the day after that, turns out you don't even love your mum. NO.

Because seriously, for me, I don't care whatever the fuck you people think of me and all, but I think days like these are just special for all those mums. Don't you think having a special day once in a year exclusively for your mum shows that that certain day is a big honor for all moms through out the world?

And hey, don't you also think that having special days like these shows that there's still at least humanity in this fucked up world?

Yes, there's still hope. People actually still know how to be thankful for their moms. And that's fucking great!

I mean like, everyone has their own birthday right. And every one of you fags think that your birthday is special for yourself and you should be grateful and treat yourself with presents, cakes and all sorts of shit, am I right?

But that doesn't make it cool to be celebrating your birthday like everyday. I mean like, I wouldn't do that, who the heck celebrates their own fucking birthday everyday? That's crazy. Would you?

Or like... Like.. Take Hari Kemerdekaan on 31st August every year. Kepala hotak lah nak sambut hari-hari, kesian budak sekolah nak tempek bendera, hias kelas tema kemerdekaan apa sume lol.

And, Maulud Nabi, Hari Raya, blah blah blahh and shits.

You get the point, right.

But yeah, on behalf of those "haters" out there, I understand the good message you're trying to pass out to everyone and the world, and it's all about being consistently grateful to your mums and NOT just on Mothers' Day. Seriously, I get it.

No offense, but do think carefully about this, people won't be celebrating Mothers' Day anyway, if it weren't for their own feelings they had for their moms at the first place alright. So I take that as a yes from y'all, we do remember our moms like all the time, and we do love her.

And please, don't spoil the mood. Feel the room. Some people like celebrating days like these, and I'm one of em'.

Am I right?


Er, no one? /hmmsuicide


P/s : Well yeah, I need to calm down.



Hey Fella #7


You know what?


P/s : Oh God this sucks.


Hehe #3 - Let's Do This


If you had to fight a fit guy like me over your girl, I'd ravage your ass and take her.


When your girl is out with her friends, and she's checkin' me out, because I've worked to improve my appearance and it shows.


People look at you and laugh. People use you as a benchmark to change their own habits.


Don't be one of these assholes making pathetic reccurring attempts to change their lifestyle. Don't fucking whine about it.

You've got self-discipline and nothing else in this life. You've got one try : To fail once is to fail everytime.

In six months, you're either going to be a pathetic, guilt-ridden failure, or a fucking tribute to human will.

Your bitch of a mother-in-law will make comments like

"I can't believe it...."

Your girl with get nervous about how much you can accomplish just by setting your mind to it and start asking you to tell her if she's good enough for you.

Assholes who taunted you will have nothing. I mean, nothing.. to say. 'Cause you did something they either they simply couldn't even begin, or tried to do and failed miserably.



P/s : Yeah, yeah whatever. It's not exactly about girls anyway #heh


Original! #1 - Can't Seem To Love.mp3


Hey, it's been a while since my last entry. Aku balik Malaysia sat 3minggu, and I'll be fucking off back to Japan this Friday. BAH!

Anyways, I just wanted to share with you fellow readers, that I have finally managed to write my very own song! WEEEEHUUUUU

Yea, no kidding! It's called "Can't Seem To Love".

Lyrics and the melody are all written by me, with the support from my close friends, yeah, thanks to you guys!

I've been planning to write my own song in a very long time, you know. But since I've been in the nasheed team back in school for 4years, I dunno, it kinda influence me. Cause, when I tried humming some melody before this, lagu-lagu irama ala2 nasheed yang keluar. And it pisses me off, you know, I'm like

"Da da di dummmmm dududuuuu~" *humming sesuka hati*

And suddenly I've realized that

"Fuck, asal kua lagu nasyid pulak ni damn."

Pastu givup, zzzzZZZzzz. It's not that I hated those nasheed songs. It's because I wanted to write my OWN original song.

Fuiyo, you guys hear that? :">

So I've decided to buy my own acoustic guitar. I bought it online in Japan, and learned guitar lessons by my own, using Youtube and UltimateGuitar. Yea, belajar benda-benda camni sorang-sorang perasaan dia macam gampang, 'cause you feel like there's no improvement at all and you're stuck there with only one skill of strumming, plucking and other shits. I need help!

Okay, let's not get poyo-poyo.

And with the help of the guitar I'm playing, humming seems to be a bit easier laa. There was this point when I was only chilling with my guitar kat bilik my friend, main-main random chords and spontaneously hums a song I don't even fucking know where it came from lol.

And it felt kinda nice.. As I slowly strum the guitar, I hum this song bit by bit, the chorus, 1st and 2nd verse, bridge and other parts of a song. I wrote down the lyrics which I felt really suits me for who and what I am at the time being.

Many thanks to Shakaff and Asran, for being there supporting me, giving me suggestions and lent me their paper and pen to write. LOL

And thank you also to Nazeep for editing the instrumental with his Garageband. You rock, buddy.


It felt good, you know. To express your feelings through your very own song.

Anyways, so here it is, hope you guys enjoy this shit. :)

Can't Seem To Love

I haven't seen you for a while,
And I just felt strange and weird,
It's like my heart is saying ohh,
That you're the one i need.

But why am I still confused,
I can't seem to find the light again.
And why is this so hard?
Ain't love supposed to be the easiest to feel about,
Or is it just me being scared?

Can't seem to love,
Can't seem to feel,
[I guess i'm just too far away..]
Oh help me god,
'Cause i need this bad.

But the end i just can't feel a thing.

I never wanted to see you cry,
I'd only wish the best for you,
I can't even love myself ohh,
And maybe that's the reason why.

If time travel's possible, I'd make sure,
[That things will end better between us..]

But that's not how life works,
Oh yeah,
This bullshit life of me..

Sekian, terima kasih.

P/s : Not worth it.



Hehe #2



Good morning everyone. It's me again.

Hurmm, I just had a long chat with my buddy. We talked about everything, family, and all other kind of personal, and important stuffs, stuffs that actually really matter in life. There's just so many things we talked about, until I've reached the point where I've started wondering, why is she telling me all of this, and why am I, too, telling her all of this? That made me thinking.

All this while I always kept my BIG problems within myself. I never did want to think about it for even just a second, and I'll do anything I could to put my mind at ease. I just didn't wanna talk and think about it.

It really feels kinda comfortable to have people to talk to. And yes, to talk about just anything without anything to hide and all.

I'm gonna be honest with you guys. I actually don't give a single fuck about what you think of the shit-rated content I'm writing in this blog and how you judge me. I'm just being sarcastic and write all I want, selagi perasaan RAGEEE ini ada.

But, life's been rough. Yes, all this while, life's been rough, and I never took action to fix it. I keep making stupid decisions, I keep running away and do other things just to forget about the actual big problems I have. But at that time, I didn't realize and I ignored just this one thing.

The consequences.

Yes, it came already. And I am super stressed out right now. But yes, I can't keep on running like this anymore. I have to take real actions, and not just think about one.

I'm gonna change. Really, at least, I'll try to change. This is a promise to myself. Hope this work out fine, and even though the consequences of the mistakes I've done before will keep pushing my life to its lowest point, I will try my best to fight them.

Andainya aku dah berusaha sedaya upaya in the future but still end up losing instead, let's just say "The best soldiers are the ones who fought with death in mind."

So, wish me luck guys. For I'm about to challenge the biggest war of my life.

Viva La Revolution!

P/s : "Take it slow, wait for it."


Shit Cover #20 - Numb [Linkin' Park]

Nah. First time wat cover sambil main gitar.

Yes, I've become so really numb inside.

P/s : "Where do you see yourself in five years?"


Brix #13 - Rambut Karat


Hello guys. I know, I know some of you are still in your exam week and I'm wasting my time writing on an entry full of crap. I know. But I'm a bit in tense. Tense of uh.. you know.. Life.

So when I get a bit tense I kinda felt EMO inside and tend to fill in my RAAAGEEE bar to infinity. And when it gets to infinity it really kinda makes me wanna be a douche bag all over again. And by being a douche bag, I meant being the He-who-thinks-he's-the-most-perfect-person-and-everybody-else-suck guy.

Yeah, I rant when I'm in RAGE. So here goes.

You see guys, I just had my haircut five hours ago. And while waiting for my turn to get my hair cut in the saloon, I browsed through the hair style magazine and stuffs to choose, you know, of which hairstyle I wanted my hair to be cut into.

So this magazine I browsed into is so full of awesome Asian hairstyles. Yeah, people through out the world worship the hairstyle that the Ching Chong Nip Nong Nong species got.

Ching Chong Nip Nong Nong species = Japanese, Korean, Chinese

Yes, the usual Ching Chong image of an Asian dude.

But what I don't find awesome is, the hair colour. It's full of fucking unnatural dyed hair! Which made me thinking, I once thought of this particular topic of something called "Rambut Karat" a long time ago but never had the chance to elaborate on them. So today I'm writing about it.

We Asians are supposed to have black and BLACK hair colour only. And that shouldn't be tolerated unless when you got old and have gray hair everywhere including your pubic hair, yes, that's only because it's natural.

The moment I got here in Japan, I see people, guys or girls have blonde, yellow, brown, white, green and other motherfuckingly striking colours, everywhere. Just everywhere.

I didn't like them. Because there's this something I just don't feel right about every fucking single time I see these pricks with bright hair color.

You have.. No, WE Asians, have natural black hair and it's supposed to be just that. Not some blonde haircolor of western people which you find is super cool to be mixed into your hair but turns out I think it's awful.

Because you know why?

We Asians have a skin tone which are not suitable enough to be paired with bright hair color. Plus our faces are not as hauntingly beautiful as the western people are. And personally for me, it's because of our eyes. We have eyes that are not round and not perfectly shaped. Long story short, generally, our eyes suck.

You don't think so? Compare.

Wow, I guess I really am the pretty-eyes-loving-type of a person. Demi Levato would definitely gets a win in a "You Fall In Love, You Lose" thread.

Anyways, is it just me, or Suki looks kinda weird in that hair color? I know she's pretty, but still. Pelik la. I guess I'm just not horny enough at this moment when I'm looking at this image perhaps?

Well, some Asian people do look good, and some of them also have the bright skin tone and pretty eyes and all, but c'mon, you gotta admit the white people wins in everything when it comes to look. That's why people throughout the world except of their own countries themselves worship them.

You don't see a Malay dude getting smothered by a bunch of turned on Japanese or Korean girls just because he's Malay, no. You see white dudes. And some African-American, too, sometimes. In fact, it's like everything is always about the white people, or to be general, the western people.

Nahh, I'm not gonna talk about the Japanese Chinese, or Korean people. Actually most of the time I think they're cool with their "awesome" hairstyles.

Let's focus into our own matter, the Malaysians.

I opened up this video and noticed, man, she DOES not look good on those haircolor. Not at all.

I just don't know why, guys. I hope it's not me alone. How do you guys feel about it?

It's just, Asians don't supposed to change their hair color. Sebab macam aku cakap tadi, we Asians and ESPECIALLY the Malaysians don't even have the skin tone and our face and our eyes are not that suitable enough to be paired with bright colored hair.

I mean like..


Just look.

Here, the most common hair color the Malays "love" to have.

I know your pose looked weird in this picture, but sorry, buddy whoever you are. I just want to focus on the hair color. I googled "Rambut Karat" on google and here's what I found. Not your luck I guess?

Oh, and even celebrities are caught up in this phenomenon.

Yeah, despite the sexiness, I'm gonna have to say no. <-- Huiyo.

Yes, she's beautiful. But brown yellow hair with traditional baju kurung? You've got to be freaking kidding me!

Tak kena la kawan-kawan! C'mon guys, I hope you're with me now.

Personally for me, when a Malay girl dyes her hair blonde, I think she looks like she's trying to look like a blonde slut and ended up looking all awkward. Yes, I do think so! I don't know why! It's just doesn't feel right to go complimenting "I love your hair." when deep down I don't even feel her hair is that cool.

And when a Malay guy dyes his hair orange or warna karat ke apa ke, he looks like a rempit to me. Just not cool, man. I don't want the rempits to be in the Malay world for more than 20years. I hope this rempit image dies soon. Tak syok beb gelaran rempit ni.

I know I sound lame and old-fashined and all conservative. No. Don't get me wrong. I am not that religious or even a moralfag to begin with, to be hating this just because they say "Mewarna rambut itu haram jika dibuat tanpa sebab, atau untuk menunjuk-nunjuk"

Call me a jerk, but you know what? There's a loop hole in my opinion. It's just the bright colors, guys. I personally think if you Malay guys wanted to go dye your hair, I'd definitely go with a dark color. Like.. The dark red wine color?

The darker the better. I think our skin tone is really suitable with dark colors. Just that.

Because the truth is, I wanted to dye my hair dark red in the saloon today. :">

But turns out, I didn't. I don't know. Perhaps, its just because it feels like I'm really far away from something I have.

P/s : God knows how long have I been staring at that message I typed before pushing the send button.



Hehe #1


Yea, this is not a gay post.

"Hmm, who knows? Maybe you could get yourself together and fix everything in your life which is already shattered like a broken mirror. C'mon Zed, I know, it might not be easy after that, but you know what I mean, love DOES bring strong faith upon yourself and to the other half also. It'd be worth a shot for both your own good."


But nahh.. I dunno.

Anyways, thanks, buddy, whoever you are.


P/s : "But seriously, why not?"



Sexist #13 - I'm Turned Off by These Girls


In the world where young boys and girls are highly attracted to each other, there's also some certain situations where you would never ever be attracted at the girl at all.

And perhaps everyone would have their own list of "Girls Who Turn Me Off".

Anyways, since I mentioned it, here's my list. No big deal. Just making fun of certain girls. WAWAWA.

1] Girls whom I heard nor smell her fart.

Who would ever be turned on with such things? Seriously, dating is not a place where you and your lover could play a farting contest with each other, no. That would be marriage.

2] Girls who I share toilet with, and right after she finishes her business, I went to use the toilet and OH GODDD, THIS STINKS!!

It's cool to share toilets with the opposite sex. But for me, kalau aku nunggu depan pintu toilet dok tahan nak kencing pastu sekali kuar pompuan cantik, pastu NOSEBLEED sebentar pastu masuk toilet bau tak ingat lah pulak. Unfortunately, yes, I actually had this situation one time. Pity her, dia tak berniat pon nak berak sebusuk camtu, who does, right? But you know, I think that toilet had this particular thingy we call "PEWANGI JAMBAN", so girls, be sure to use this if you're sharing toilets with guys. Please. Aku pon sembur kalau aku rasa busuk sangat lepas guna.

3] Girls whom I saw picking her own nose dengan penuh nikmat.

Pam. You explain. I already told this story once in this blogpost.

4] Girls who laugh loudly like a guy.

Buruk bebeno nampak. Geez. Tapi kalau laki gelak kuat, takpe :"> /sexist detected

5] Girls who doesn't know when to stop talking.

Well, I wanna tell my story, too! What do you expect when you're talking with a person? Me being the listener all the time? You might as well talk to your own shit in the toilet instead.

6] Girls who try hard to be all "manja" and shit but you just know it's just not herself.

C'mon, I know you girls know some guys like me dig girls yang manja-manja, but you don't have to act like one when obviously it's not yourself. So please, cut the crap. Because manja-manja yang dimaksudkan di sini adalah yang natural punya.

7] Girls who obviously try to get attention from people.

You tell me. The easiest way, go to Facebook. You'll find :

- Camwhores,
- Chicks who hate themselves and hates certain other people, too and post hate statuses just to get attention from everyone.
- Chicks with never ending problems.
- Chicks who think Facebook is her diary and lets other people read her diary. No.

I got tonnes more. But four is enough, as long as you guys get the point. I got a whole bunch of other lists to write.

8] Girls who act proudly like they're the most independent women in the world.

Yes, you are independent. Now go live alone in your room and die alone. Like me.

9] Girls who smell badly and can't even get hold of tidying up her own room.

Ugh. It just gets me, man. Berbau satu hal, pastu bilik sepah. Yea, I know, bilik aku pon takde la kemas, tapi koman-koman kalau aku tau ada orang nak jenguk aku kasi la nampak indah sikit di mata orang lain. Don't you think?

10] Girls who don't even know how to cook the most simplest meal ever.

I know, ramai jugak perempuan tak reti masak power-power, tak kisah la, aku pon tak power, tapi dinner mudah senang pon tak reti? Aku pon reti! Omelette with fried rice. Wow, that does sound kinda tempting. Padahal nasi goreng tambah telur goreng je.

11] Girls who had their own experience of cheating their ex-s and doesn't even feel ashamed about it.

You are the most awful human being alive and I just know you're a complete crap. No, you know what, that's an insult to "crap". If crap could eat, and then crap stuff out, it's that! You are the crap that crap craps! /cool HIMYM quote alert

12] Girls with obviously thick mustache.

I'm sorry but this... exists. And you know it, Kamil.


In the end, it's normal to have types, am I right? I know I'm just writing a bunch of useless trash where you losers waste your time reading. Well, let's just say sapa suh baca.

Hmm. Trash.

Why do you guys read my blog again?

P/s : Oh Luna.



Shit Cover #19 - Touniquet [Evanescence]


Yea, I know, this ain't my cover and I'm aware of that. I'm just the editor. Who gives a fuck about the editor?


BTW, it's just fun to be editing your buddies' video for once in a while, you can feel the appreciation from them, you know. And by looking at people reactions of how they liked the video, you can sit in front of your computer and think

"Yeah, I made this video BAHAHAHA"

And yes, my three friends in this video are just awesome. NNN & Amish & Zara, they're talented and have awesome skills in music.

So here's the video. Hope you guys enjoy it!

Awesome, right, rightttt??? :">

Thank for viewing, though. Teehee.

P/s : He who makes a beast out of himself, gets rid of the pain of being a man.


Internet Life #6 - Having Fun With Spam


Howdy guys! Today I'm going to write about spam. :)

What I hate most about the internet nowadays is just there's too many spam going around. For instance, I browsed through my old entries in this blog, sekali tengok tiba-tiba ada banyak gila comment dalam satu entry, so I opened up the comment section and fuck.

Banyak pulak tu. Somehow it gives me some kind of false hopes, yela tengok dalam satu entry ade tiba-tiba banyak pulak comment, syok la kite kan sebagai blog writer. Sekali buka benda-benda camtu babi apa.

And enough of that, spam don't just exist in and emails, but also the Yahoo Messenger. And there was this one day when I was alone, some one added me on YM and it's ID really sounded like it's a "her", so uh.. Yeah, this is so embarrassing.. Aku tak pernah pulak kena sampai camni sebelum ni, so I never knew okay. :|

I never had conversations like this, okay. One girl just showed up and being friendly with me all and those stuff. Never had it. :(

It was until the end of the conversation when "she" pasted the link, ha time tu la I was totally convinced that this person is just a spam.

Agak marah jugak la. Terus aku delete contact dia lol jadi emofag pule sebentar ya.

And so, a few weeks after that, somehow another "person" added me again on Yahoo Messenger.

I accepted, of course, just to have fun this time.

Terserlah bangang dia kat situ. Puas hati aku.

Padan muka ko spam. Even you're not a living thing, you did manage to make yourself to look so stupid.

P/s : So far away.



Shit Cover #18 - More Than Words [Extreme]


Fuiyo konon-konon busy la seminggu ni jadi music editor kan demi Amish Zara dan NNN. Ehem.

So this one pon dah lama dah di-record. I don't remember when, though, just nak jugak upload kat Youtube, kan. :">

Anyways, hope you guys enjoy it. =)

P/s : We'll move on. I promise you that.


Toilet Paper #2 - The New Era


Hello losers!

Today, I have this sudden feeling of tense drooling into my adrenaline and I just realized that this blog is so overrated to be written by me alone, so what the hell, I'm inviting my gay boyfriend Pam to be another author of this blog, too.

Yeah, that's him. The retarded one.

Yes, we are gay. Please believe that. Kami gay, kami okay.

Lagipon aku takde la selalu sangat update blog dah macam dulu, so to keep this blog constantly running on its own, I've decided to let Pam to be a part of it, too. It takes two to make things go well, am I right? Teehee :">

So, from now on, this blog will no longer available with the url

And it will be changed into

Yeah, I know, lame right? But we've been taking a lot of time thinking about this url thingy, you know. Yela sebab nak kasi nama cool abes la konon, but in the end we've decided to just put it the simple and easiest way.

Zed&Pam. Remember, this blog is no longer mine alone. And each of our entries will have the signature of the author himself. :">

I hope you guys enjoy our masterpiece.

Ain't this one good-looking son of a bitch?

Anyways, glad to be writing with ya, buddy!

P/s : I am soooo excited!



Hey Fella #6 - Be Happy


I just woke up from a bad dream. And it took me a while to remember who am I exactly. Now this is great. Let's blogging! :D

Do you want happiness, guys? Do you want the secret I have used lately just to cope? It is very simple. Be happy. At least, try to.

Cute girl isn't interested? Be happy. Cat or dog or any kind of pet dies? Be happy. Fail exam? Be happy. Just be happy. No matter what happens, tell yourself that. Be happy be happy and be happy.

Smile as you spend another night alone, when you see one girl who might have made you happy in someone else's arms. Against their lips. And smile as you spend the 2nd night alone, when you realize your life's ain't going nowhere, but you just don't have the strength to just start working hard again.


Because the mind is a powerful thing. If you keep this up long enough, soon you will truly convince yourself that you're happy. You can go to and from school or work or college and no matter what happened that day, you'll still be happy.

Only in the early hours of morning will be the reality of it start to sink in, but that's not a problem, you can just ignore this. And who's around to see your face fall and down at 3 in the morning? No one, because God forbid they see the sad, self-loathing person you are behind that mask.

No, mask is not the right word.

Because it is not just a mask or a smile that you keep up, any one could do that. What this "Mind over body" stuff is true happiness, as long as you do not think about it. You can go about your day and be genuinely happy, with this new cheery demeanor you can have, maybe there'll even be a girl who starts to show interest.

Or maybe when you sit around you would have just realized that you can actually start over again in your life, but you won't, because you're weak.

But no matter what and how, you're actually happy. Remember that.

Until you're at home, of course, at 3 in the morning with no friends or any cute girl to keep your mind at peace. That is when you start remember how sad you are. You have time to think about anything and everything in your life, and you remember why you shouldn't be happy. But of course the next morning comes with a whole new set of distractions and you can feel happy again.

It's 3 in the morning, guys. I feel like dying.

P/s : The best time in a day is probably when you've just woken up from your sleep. Because at that moment, your mind is rested and everything about reality and dream's kinda mixed up with each other. And at that point for about 3-4 seconds, you just don't know who you are. THAT's the greatest moment. To wake up and not knowing who you are and the sudden feeling that probably you can start over again on everything in your life, apart from how you were in the past, because You. Just. Don't. Know. Who. You. Are.

Sexist #12 - How To Get Out From A Relationship


Howdy guys! Let's brush some teeth, Spartan style!

Yeah, I know, WTF right.


Relationships suck, man.

They do, cause' you know why, it's not so much that the relationship that sucks, it's when you're ready to get out from a relationship that sucks.

Because guys don't know know how to break up with women. We really don't. But women, they really are professional in breaking up, you know. With their so-called self respect and ethics, you know what I mean.

They just make that one phone call.. And they'd have this specific keyword, you know, they won't even say they wanted to break up with you at first. They would just give you, like a hint, you know.

Your GF : Listen, we've got to talk.. *serious voice*


Guys don't know how to break up with women of the slightest clue, man. We don't. I know it, because I didn't, too. I stayed with a girl for almost like, 4 years. LOL

The first three years were quite awesome, though, cause' you know, we were actually making the best out of our relationship at that time. But when it came up to the fourth year, I've realized that I'm actually stuck with this girl, man. Plus we're far away with each other.

Our relationship turned sour and we fight all the time, until we've came to this point where we actually don't fight anymore and not giving shit at each others' faces, but you know, like I said, guys don't know how to break up with women. I just didn't know how to get out of it, man. Until she eventually finds another guy and cheated on me. Yeah I know, I'm the loser.

But, that's the perfect situation for me the get the fuck out of there! Well, I know, back then was the most painful experience getting dumped by the person I onve loved, but man, come to think of it, I'm still young, who would wanna got stuck with only one girl their whole life?

[No wonder you die alone, Zed]

Don't gimme that look, you fucktards. If you're a normal guy, you won't be so fucking devoted to someone unless you really reallyyy, I mean REALLY, love her. You don't trust me? Go have a walk anywhere, in the park, or the shopping complex, and just walk. You'll find some another girl's ass you wanna fuck so hard instead of your girlfriend's.

Because that's what we are, with our male brain. We imagine things like those kinda odds, and we will never be satisfied of what we have right now. I mean, your current girlfriend.

Picture totally not related.

Anyways, let's skip ahead.

But you know, when we guys do really want a break up with you ladies? We start to act like a bigger jerk than we're already acting like. We do, and ladies, you should be able to sense this, alright?

If the guy starts putting his foot down at times where he shouldn't care, that IS a hint. Because that's what bored guys like us do, we started not giving a fuck at where you go, what you do, how you talk, and just anything. Or you could also try being a complete asshole.

Ask them ladies to do stupid stuffs and MAKE them do it. If they don't want to, try harder, make them go all like "Oh, this son of a bitch really pisses me off, this time", you know.

We're just trying to push you ladies to the limit a little, you know what I mean. We're actually helping YOU to get there.

Because we're trying to make YOU go mad at us so YOU'LL be the one who's out of control emotionally and ended up breaking up with us. And lucky for us, we don't have to do the dirty work!


I'd rather get dumped than dumping another person, man. I just know it hurts, but really, dumping another person who loves you, it really IS hard, and it feels like you're the most evil person on earth, too. It's breaking another heart we're talking about here. Who would wanna do that? Would you wanna do that? No, not you, Tma, I'm asking the guys here. :">

Biarlah aku sakit, asalkan aku tak sakitkan orang lain. That type of concept, you know. Ala, but I confess, I do have my moments of dumping another person, like twice. And it felt, like SUPER-DUPER AWFUL! I'm not the type of a human who will go like

Sorry for the naked man image.

After dumping another person, no I don't. I will really feel miserable inside.

I know, I know, no matter how much I complain about how suck relationship really is, well you know, deep down, everyone of us has our own soft spot, right? Well, fuck that!

This is me, always complaining about everything.

P/s : "I met a person and I just want to talk to that person again, I don't know."

Shit Cover #18- Like A Star [Tae Yeon SNSD & The One]


There goes the winter break. BRRRRRRR it's freezing outside, I'm telling you guys.

Yet Lia and I managed to overcome this overwhelming breeze and recorded a video clip just for fun for our latest cover song.

Here, I present to you, the first video cover of ZR STUDIOS production. Rate! Rate and comment! And don't forget to subscribe! :">

Great, now I'm attention-whoring. Same old, same old.

Yes, it's a Korean song, and I don't understand a word in it. Blame Lia for making me do this. Hehe, I'm just kidding okay, Lia? ;)

Anyways, enjoy!

Ignore my shit acting. I know right. Here I am spending my days regretting these moments of trying-so-hard-to-look-pro-but-instead-it-got-weird.

Well, you know, it's public, and I've been trying to get the feeling, you know. But gosh, it's public, man! I ended up being awkward instead! BAHAHAA

Anyways, thank you for viewing. I love you guys! :">

P/s : The worst thing about peeing in winter is, at first you thought you can't hold it in any much longer anymore, but when you're in the toilet, you'll go "Laa, itu jeke?"